Overwhelmed is the word of the past couple weeks! Some in amazing ways and some in more difficult and painful ways. Let’s start with the incredible blessings –
Overwhelmed with LOVE!
1. The love and support of our dear friends!! Thank you Elwells, Oros & Mitchells for surprising us with the “Let’s Fight Lyme” Benefit. It truly has humbled us and taken all our pride yet how overwhelmed and thankful we are for how God provides for our every need. It still brings tears to my eyes every time I think about it and have a hard time talking about it as we just feel so undeserving and do not like to be in this position but we are; so we are facing it with grateful hearts. Thank you too for all of the others helping throw this benefit of a blessing! We are forever grateful and hope we can do this for someone else one day!
2. Prayers…It is something when people say they will be praying for you or over you and you trust they are. Then when you hear your name being prayed over in a church service (Thank you Pastor Sharrett) and you heard through the grapevine that my name is prayed over every Sunday out loud and daily by hundreds of people, many who don’t even know me personally; the power of prayer becomes more and more alive! I send out texts to a few close friends or family members here or there if I am having a bad day or just need extra prayer and then I learn that those people then send out my prayer needs to their prayer group which in turn again becomes hundreds of people praying – I mean talk about a community of love!
Overwhelmed with Hardships
1. Again, we are finally facing issues in our house (mold, air problems, etc) and I am scared! It has been one of those things that I just don’t want to step into or deal with! There have been several of my lymie friends that have had to move out of their homes or spend thousands and thousands of dollars to make it livable for a lyme patient. Mold is like kryptonite for people with lyme and we have had a few leaks in our home the past 3 years. So we shall see!
2. Another step I am having a hard time facing is getting my girls tested! I know God is in control and has all of us in the palm of His Mighty Healing Hand but I don’t think I can handle much more right now. I know I will feel so guilty even though we had no idea at the time if they come back positive yet many other family’s walk this road together. And we can too! We will just need a whole lot more prayer (if only we could get jobs praying for others)
3. Every patient handles supplements, antibiotics, treatments different so it is very challenging trying to figure out what is best for me. It is great to hear what worked for some and what worked for others but still there is so many options and things to try and it is just overwhelming! We are trying to re-evaluate our next steps or what we will continue, etc. We need to figure out if I have any co-infections, which is another thing I just don’t want to walk into as it just makes it more complicated!
4. My pain, I am beginning to have terrible pain in my knees…like really bad! Usually in the evening and bad enough that I cannot walk up and down my stairs. I had pain in my knees back in high school and had to quit cheerleading (yes I was one) and track/cross country in junior high. They said it was patellar tendinitis so not sure if that was what it was or if I did get my Lyme Disease way back when I was a little girl in Indiana and that was a symptom. We will never know but just scary when we live in a 3 story townhouse and have lots of stairs. I love my house and my neighbors and do not want to even think about not living here! Also have been having lots of fatigue, no energy and shortness of breath here and there. Again, just not knowing what each day will be like or even hour by hour it is a bit unnerving.
I was sitting here writing this crying and now I am giggling as I can only imagine how crazy and confused many of you are! That is okay because Lyme Disease is CRAZY AND CONFUSING so that makes my blog a bit that way too! Literally, I would share more information on the actual disease and I will start doing that but it is like learning a new language. Very complex! In all this blog brings me I wanted to say thank you for letting me share, being open and real. It is the STRENGTH and JOY of the Lord that I am able to get up each day and keep going; I am human and I am emotional and I am scared. Every time I write on my blog I gain a breath of fresh air. It is like my heart has grown fuller. My fears ease and I feel strong! Because I have God on my side and thousands of supporters and friends on my team! Thank you all so very much! I wish I could tell you in words how thankful my heart is for all of you!
With Deep Love, Ann